FILING BLESS

           

                                               FEELING BLESS

           There is lots of small things that I do wrong with the people around me mostly to my family I am living with, such as something they said to do that is really important to them, but I couldn't be able to do it by forgetting it or doing it wrong. I never mean to do it all intentionally, but it happens to me most time which frustrates me the most with so much anger and hate to myself.

            Self-hate is very strong feeling that I can beat or slap myself, I think this feeling usually generates when I have some really important work which is doable but for some very stupid reasons such as forgetfulness etc. I don't able to do it. Which made me self-hate so badly, can't even explain it clearly but this could be so much frustrating too for the person who hand me the particular things to be done. Whereas, in my case I feel bless that I am surrounded with the people who have high patients, forgive full and good heart all around which makes me forgive myself. However, usually this self-hate feeling does not last for long, sometimes it may last for 2-5 minutes or 10-15 minutes, this could be depending on person to person.