The Feeling Of Un-survive Tree Plantation

 Today I have a question in my head that why did I had a feeling to failure of planting tree?

      So, I think about it carefully and what I got is that I had this feeling of failure in planting tree was because I had an overwhelm negative thinking about its growth that is that 'if I plant a tree then after some day it will dry and die or will be coverup by other weeds and make it die off so on... and what's the use of planting tree, if it's not survived?' Instead of thinking 'what if it survives? Even if not then I can plant again and again or will try planting some other tree which may have chance to survived or taking care of it after planting' but no I had only wrong thoughts.

      you might be thinking why and how I realize that I was wrong? 

So, I was in hostel and used to plant some vegetables in balcony and one day I bought a black "Yongchak" bean dry seeds (Parkia speciosa), which I soaked to consumed after a day, but I couldn't finish it at time. Therefore, some got sprouted I decided to plant it in balcony in small pot among three sprouts only one survive, it was kept growing I had to plant it somewhere. I thought to plant it in somewhere in hostel compound during my birthday day. But again, I had a feeling that somebody will cut it unknowingly or will be disappear in bushes under weeds etc. the birthday came, and the bean tree was still in balcony. I really wanted to plant it. Luckily, we had a last semester social service at the department right after next day of our final exam therefore, I took the chance and successfully planted it with the permission of our professor sir. While planting I had a word that was "I don't know it will survive or not but still Iam planting it", the reply came from sir " sure it will survive" that makes me feel motivated. After few days I check on it and it was there growing happily the leaves waving in air with healthy green look. It makes me happy.